It's been nearly 12 days since Mike left to Virginia for training and I've been on my own with two kids. This has probably been one of the hardest challenges I've faced as a parent and well, maybe in life!
I have so much respect for single parents/military families/spouses that travel a ton. I know compared to them, I shouldn't complain. But this is my blog so bare with me. Both kiddos are in daycare three days a week and thankfully Mike's parents helped me out. But barely getting sleep, then having to make breakfast, feed Milo, get out the door, work, pick them up, make dinner, get them to bed and then start the whole process over, is mentally and physically exhausting.
Well let's just say it gets old. On the non-daycare days my sanity is challenged with Collin (aka boundless energy boy). When Mike's home, I can relax when he gets back from work. I don't mind making dinner. When it's just me though, it takes every ounce of energy to compel myself to make a home cooked meal. It's also discouraging when Collin turns up his nose at almost anything that's not a hot dog or a nugget. I'm starting to do the "eat it or starve" mantra because I'm just sick of it and tired. Going out to eat isn't exactly fun with two either.
On top of it, our house has been like a dust storm as the contractor finishes up so we can list our house. Then of course, Milo got sick. Although he's feeling better now, he seems to be in the reverse pattern of waking up several times at night which is making me feel like a zombie again. Collin wakes up when the sun rises (530 am or so), it doesn't matter how dark his room is, or how often I tell him not to get up until there's at least a 6 on his clock.
I'm far from a perfect parent. There have been times I snapped and yelled at Collin ending in lots of tears. There has been way more ipad watching than what is recommended. Pat on the back for not physically hurting him, seriously. The fact that both kids are adorable and Collin gives me cute lines and sloppy kisses helps.
I know Mike is not having a blast in the middle of nowhere, Virginia where his only food options are Applebees or Chili's and he's studying complicated computer forensics with a test for certification. At the same time, I don't hold lots of sympathy for him because compared to being ALONE with two kids, studying and sleeping without being waken at night, doesn't sound so bad.
And now, because why not, I'm feeling crappy and hoping coconut water, vitamin C and zinc do some magic. But there is only one. more. day.
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